Change is DEEP!!

Hurting deep inside, words and desires mixed up.

Trying to focus on WHAT'S REAL,
PRAYING so that I can GRASP IT.
Middle of the night having thoughts,
wishing your name would become a FADING MEMORY.
I'M HURT but you can't SEE IT.
So CAUGHT UP with your PAST,
I'm SPEAKING to you but you don't BELIEVE IT.
I can't manage your demons and mines..
I have to live for me.
Slipped up and ignored my desires, now I'm the one wiping my tears.
I cried for the PAIN, and then I cried for a CHANGE.
Knowing what I endured would build me.
Telling myself I'd never feel like this again.
I let you in....(Comforting my soul.)
(CHANGE)
Faithful mental affairs that play out in my mind.
Shifting emotions of our memories and my growth.
I reverse the pain into my work; Pouring out what can't be said.
With goals of writing things that aren't able to reach them verbally but internally.
Change wont allow my spirit to hurt, SO I CHANGE FOR ME. MY BETTER HALF!!

SAY WHAT'S REAL

 

Living in a world where nothing belongs to you

Trying to build and understand the trust of and for others.

Is it possible, are they worth it?

Is this product you invest in worth the blessings of your joyous encounters?

Will they appreciate what's real?

(THE SWEETEST THING)

Or throw shade, and Salt on your name having you shriveled up like a prune?

Draining you of what you exude

With the worries of your giving spirit

You continue to #PlayYourRole letting the universe take its course.

Faith is what you stand by, 

awaiting the understanding and approval to allow yourself to be used.

Whether its for the moment, or a lifetime of bliss and tribulations.

Is it worth it?

Could it be real?

Grasping your experiences living in the moment. (Damn this feels good), my fears kick in.

Im understanding the situation, yet Im familiar with my past.

So many ideas of where my road leads to.

With delicate words to fabricate what it really could be.

Sifting through the bull, pushing through the clouds, finding my way to a better me.

Still praying for thee, 

Head full of voices but the only one I hear is telling me to,

"SAY WHAT'S REAL" to save me!